Big Daddy and Youngest Son are out giving blood today. There was a time when I didn’t weigh enough to give blood. That’s not the case today. I just hate needles.
Youngest Son is so on a roll lately. He actually got up early (for him) today so that he could run before he went to give blood. One thing you don’t want to do, as Big Daddy found out the hard way this past summer, is to physically exert yourself after a blood donation. It makes you not feel so well.
Youngest Son is in excellent physical shape. He’s one of those strong-minded people that just never gives up. That’s why he’s gotten straight A’s in 3 semesters of college (well, OK, the 2 English classes were A-minuses). It’s why even the best high school soccer offense players in the region dreaded seeing him on their tail. His calf muscles bulge obscenely. He’s decided to join the college track team in the spring and he’s starting to prepare for it now.
I wish I had the same mind-set. I can push myself at times, but only so far. For a while, I was busting my butt running at least 15 miles a week. Now, not so much. I know part of it is the winter funk has set in. I just want to hibernate when it gets cold. And we’ve had too many goodies sitting around the house. I don’t normally even crave sweets all that much. But lately, I’ve had trouble passing them up.
Last night, when I stood on the scale, the dreaded number was reached. This is almost the weight I was on the day I gave birth to one of my kids. I can’t remember which one, but it was the only time I recall being weighed the day I gave birth. It seems like kind of a cruel thing. The number seemed obscenely large for me at the time. For a lot of people, it’s a perfectly good average weight. On Biggest Loser, it’s even a goal weight for some. But for the girl who desperately wanted to reach 100 pounds in high school thinking perhaps then I’d get some boobs, it’s a scary number.
So, even though it’s cold as freak outside, I’m going for a short run. I passed up the cookie tray this morning when I had my coffee. I may have given up running 5K races, but I’m going to keep doing little things. I just can’t turn my back on the good foods, but I will take smaller portions. I’ll never be a size 4, but I’m determined to stay in the clothes that are now hanging in my closet.